okie dokie... things have been going really crazy...
i haven't been able to gain like any balance in my life for a while now. with classes, friends, family, and just trying to find some time for myself i just haven't had much time to think. in general my classes consume my life, if i try to get more time for friends they are always busy, aren't interested, or they decide to invade my life and then my grades start to suffer. my family is key, especially since my bro just got married, so we are still just trying to recover from that chaos. then with so much stress from classes and the random drama of the few times i do get to see my friends my poor brain has just started to fizzle on me so i have to literally just call it quites randomly and take a nap. and with all this random stuff i haven't gotten the chance to post any of my works, work on fanfic, or even just write in my journal or diary lately! gah, oh how i wish there were more hours in the day that i might then have time for all that needs to be done. whether i like it or not i can't make myself work continiously for 18 hours without passing out and being barely usely for my classes and 16 hours of work just isn't enough seemingly. *sigh* thus it's time to figure out some random stuff and hopefully get everything organized... right now i'm really feeling like the american idiot, cuz i'll be damned if even though things seemed so insane in Japan they made sense, here all i feel like is that i'm being consumed by chaos, welcome to the american idiot...